Wild Gods

A community honoring Artemis, Pan, and Dionysus



in memoriam

The Summer Day

Who made the world?
Who made the swan, and the black bear?
Who made the grasshopper?
This grasshopper, I mean-
the one who has flung herself out of the grass,
the one who is eating sugar out of my hand,
who is moving her jaws back and forth instead of up and down-
who is gazing around with her enormous and complicated eyes.
Now she lifts her pale forearms and thoroughly washes her face.
Now she snaps her wings open, and floats away.
I don’t know exactly what a prayer is.
I do know how to pay attention, how to fall down
into the grass, how to kneel down in the grass,
how to be idle and blessed, how to stroll through the fields,
which is what I have been doing all day.
Tell me, what else should I have done?
Doesn’t everything die at last, and too soon?
Tell me, what is it you plan to do
with your one wild and precious life?

Mary Oliver, 1935-2019



“For a wild animal, trusting humans rarely has survival value.”

— from Orca: The Whale Called Killer, by Erich Hoyt

How I go to the woods (Mary Oliver)

Ordinarily, I go to the woods alone, with not a single
friend, for they are all smilers and talkers and therefore

I don’t really want to be witnessed talking to the catbirds
or hugging the old black oak tree. I have my way of
praying, as you no doubt have yours.

Besides, when I am alone I can become invisible. I can sit
on the top of a dune as motionless as an uprise of weeds,
until the foxes run by unconcerned. I can hear the almost
unhearable sound of the roses singing.

If you have ever gone to the woods with me, I must love
you very much.

Temenos, October 2018

On the Solstice

It’s been a wet and windy week, persistent cloud cover and blowing rain accentuating the ever-present gloom. At this time of year you can sleep in and still get up before the sun. I light the candles for my morning devotionals in complete darkness most days.

Sunrise in Seattle, on the day of the winter solstice, 2018

The ancient Greeks don’t seem to have ascribed much significance to the solstices. That far south, the swing in duration of daylight from solstice to equinox to solstice again would not be nearly so dramatic, even before the days that electric lights extend our waking hours. But here in the Pacific Northwest, when you’re leaving for work in the dark, coming home in the dark, and looking out the window at gray sky and pouring rain in between, the encroaching darkness takes on a significance of its own. This region’s seasonal cycle fits the Wiccan Wheel of the Year, construct that it is, very well, and even though I only follow it socially these days, marking the longest night in particular seems appropriate.

It’s a time of gathering in and taking stock. My practice shifted to a more rigorous and formal level this year in a number of ways; so too, the devotional group Wild Gods (as distinct from this blog) has been having some conversations about our future, what we want our collective identity and practice to look like, whether to engage in more public or semi-public work, whether to formally associate ourselves with groups and organizations doing things similar to what we do. What does it mean to follow gods whose apogee of worship took place millennia ago? What does it mean to follow a devotional cycle established in a place different in climate, geography, and culture than the one which we inhabit? We aren’t the first to be asking these questions; we won’t be the last. Once you answer the first question (why worship any gods at all?) there are only more questions to come.

Cats have an intuitive understanding of hygge.

A few years ago, hygge experienced one of those brief swells of interest that are a hallmark of this interconnected age of short attention spans. For me this season in particular has been wrapped in that feeling, like an envelope of coziness and physical and emotional comfort. Perhaps it’s a reaction to political uncertainty (to understate the situation in America rather a lot), or the full leafing-out of middle age (I’m 44), or the awareness both of my own personal good fortune and of how many are struggling to just keep a roof over their heads and food in their mouths despite living in the richest, most productive country the world has ever known. Maybe I’m just tired. But this week in particular I’ve been wrapping the darkness around me like a blanket, listening to the wind and rain beating against the walls of my house. Even the weather becomes an insulator.

It’s a time to rest. It’s also a time to think about the future, as soon the daylight will begin to lengthen, the weather to shift, the earth to awaken, the sprouts to poke out of the soil, the migrating birds to journey north, the mammals stir out of their winter nests. Not a time to plan, not yet. Planning is too ambitious, for this season.

It’s a time to dream.


instead of Santa Claus

teach your children about bears

and trees

and beetles

and clean water

and other things that suffer

from unbelief.

On mycorrhizal networks

Read about forests and sooner or later you come across the idea of mycorrhizal networks: networks of fungi that connect the root systems of trees, enabling them to transfer water, nutrients, and minerals to one another. In his book The Hidden Life of Trees,  Peter Wohlleben describes trees feeding a stump in their midst, such that the stump, long deprived of trunk and branch and leaf, still shows signs of life. Hidden underground, the existence of these networks wasn’t even suspected until relatively recently; fungi were thought to be harmful to trees, never beneficial. Instead, they turn out to be a mechanism of resource sharing, and even communication.

If you think that this sounds like a social network, well, you wouldn’t be the first. But to me at least it seems like a far richer such network than the technological intermediations that now permeate our lives. If I’m moved to indulge in metaphor, I think of social networks in the older sense: a holistic conception of the connections of friendship, family, community, common interest, shared culture, and all of the other ways that human beings find to connect and reciprocate. It is these connections that people fear are being lost in favor of the technologically intermediated, though I think the picture is far more nuanced than that–my own networks are shaped differently than they would have been if, say, Facebook did not exist, but that doesn’t automatically mean that they’re poorer.

Instead, I think about the quality of those connections, and how often they’re reinforced. As I get older I find myself with fewer of them, but those fewer are often richer–as long as I take care to nurture those that nurture me. I think that we are living in time when these networks are increasingly important. Life in America can become disjointed, disconnected, with surprising ease. We cannot take the networks which sustain us for granted, and which are too often invisible until they actually vanish.

The land that my husband and I are stewarding has a substantial number of madrona trees. Despite thriving in challenging conditions, madronas are notoriously hard to establish. The recognition that the specific mycorrhizal fungi that enable them to establish networks and thrive–that this is why you rarely see a madrona by itself–is quite recent. The lesson that we must feed each other in order to survive is obvious, of course, but I’ve also been thinking of this in terms of relationships that, if less fundamental, are no less critical to our well being as humans. What are our mycorrhizal connections, and how do we make sure to sustain them?

“Spend Thousands,” Alfred LaMotte

Better just walk gently and breathe,
honoring the mossy bearded cedars
who are very great gurus,
their priceless teaching, given for free,
the green stillness around them,
the roots of their lineage truffling down
to the moment before creation,
the fountain of wonder
that gushes up from the center
of every Now.

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Image: Camp Fire in Northern California, the state's deadliest wildfire
Camp Fire, 2018. Image source: U.S. Forest Service/National Wildfire Coordinating Group. Retrieved from NBC News.

“The terror of wildness is its ability to toss us on our butts despite all our planning, intelligence, technology, and even good intentions. Life will kill you; one absolute certainty. Yet every day we resist. One could say that nearly the whole of modern technological society is dedicated to the attempt to overcome this truth.”

— Mollie Matteson, “A Spiral Dance: The Necessity of Fire to Wildness”

All That We See or Seem

Wish lanterns, Wyrd Sisters 2018

In ancient Greece, a person seeking healing might go to the appropriate temple (to Asclepius or Apollo, for instance) and go to sleep. Whatever they dreamed was deemed to be the treatment for their ailment.


I have a somewhat uneasy relationship with this idea, mostly because I’ve always had a somewhat uneasy relationship to dreams. I’ve never quite moved beyond the idea that they’re the detritus of the mind during the recuperation of sleep, and if they seem to have some significance, it’s because we are pattern-making creatures and of course something that emerges from our own minds is going to seem significant: there’s a good chance that it’ll tie back to something we’ve actually seen, said, or done in waking life, or else we’ll rationalize it until it does.

Then again, I have similar feelings around many magical and divinatory techniques.

Wilderness altar detail, Wyrd Sisters 2018

That doesn’t stop me from using them in ways that are useful to me.


Once you decide to pay attention to dreams–not necessarily to take them as reflection of reality, or take any action based on them, just pay attention–it changes your perspective. The world softens. For this past weekend’s sixth annual Wyrd Sisters retreat, we explored the intersection of dream, and wilderness.


Wilderness altar detail, Wyrd Sisters 2018

Wilderness is a tricky concept, and a slippery one. Try to define it and you slip down a rabbit hole of cultural baggage and problematic history. Wild Gods is the name of the loose affiliation of folk who come together around our common practice, but ask us what we mean by wild and you’ll get a host of different answers. It’s not concrete, in a different way than how dreams are not concrete. In a sense, wilderness is itself a dream.


If, however, you accept the proposition that the world is in need of healing, and that a symptom of that need is the injury to the world’s wilderness (however defined), then if a dream can be interpreted in a way that offers healing to the dreamer…what dream is the world having of its own healing?

Wilderness altar detail, Wyrd Sisters 2018
Mosswood Hollow Retreat Center, Wyrd Sisters 2018

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